alone.

i've always felt alone. like no one is there or even here for me. 

it sucks. really.. sigh why . 

i dont get the things in return. is like , ha .. i just find that this year sucks alot..

how am i going to celebrate my sweet fifteen ? or should i say fucked up fifteen ..

im not happy at all .. i dont know why .. spamming myself with all the sad songs.

ha , pathetic. wont be a long post , gonna game like shit today maybe going out later.

but all i really feel now is alone. where are the people that said 

" I will be here for you ? " 

i mean like , if you're going to promise someone something , shouldnt you fulfill that promise ?

sigh , forget it. im transparent. invisible. dead and gone. no one bothers. 

ha.. im happy no ? faking a fucking smile.

im fucking tired. but also , i finally forgotten. i gave up .

on the sweetest guy .. haha .. 

phone is fucking silent. is like , ya even if i offed my phone for one whole fucking day , 

you wont care . i know it. i was gone for one whole afternoon once. no one even text or wa me.

i feel fucking burden rn .. no one is here to hear my rants but only you readers.

idontknow who are you. but thankyou. it showed that you care .

but like you wouldnt want me to know who you are.

its ok.. you readers make my blog alive.

& thats why i continued blogging. cause i know this is the only place i could just rant my heart out .

- twinkle . ♡

my new vlog !

hey pinkies ! again ..

i just vlogged ! >> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h8RANtkIM2Y <<

please subscribe to me ok <: 

im sorry for being soft , i didnt dare to even speak. but yea 

please support ? (:

My mind isnt made.

Hey Pinkies ! 

I really dont know how many of you are reading this and willing to help .

but i have this question. 

" Should I become a Vlogger ? "

'Cause Rina told me to be one. & i too feel like uploading videos.

maybe is a just for fun kind of thing ? cause i've been a blogger since like primary 3 . 

yes , and i wanted to try something new. 

so guys , tell me . if i really became a vlogger , will you guys support me ?

i dont have to be as famous as PeiShi , Naomi , Noah , Tosh .

i just want to have fun . im serious .

i wanted to start a vlog today . but then i realise , i dont really have the time to edit and all .

i wont put up a good vlog . but day after day , i really wanna just talk to the camera .

i realise i had things that i wanna tell you . but not thru my blog. 

but thru youtube. 

guys , really . if you really think i should , mention me / ask me / email me .

even if you think i shouldnt become a vlogger , tell me the reason why .

guys , really im willing to share this with you cause i treat you as

one of my family. but at the same time , i feel that im just alone .

maybe i want to start vlogging is also cause i wanna meet more people. to learn more.

so yea , guys what do you think ? should i ? 

contact me @ my twitter / ask.fm / email : lynlyn.nomnom@gmail.com 

guys , your remarks or comment to this is a real big help . thanks for helping guys (: ..

just scream if you have to. ✞

a blog shoutout to : http://oh-my-pizza.blogspot.sg/ !

hello little pinkies.

remember i had a post saying i want to be a vlogger ?

haha , maybe not now. or maybe never. im just afraid that some will say that , cause i want

to get famous , so i start being a vlogger.

im not saying who said this and did anyone said it.

 but still , i just cant tolerate with all these haters . yes 

" Haters gonna Hate , You Get Stronger "

but sometimes , i dont feel that way . remember on my ask.fm , some anon said this ?

You will never find true love or friendships . Just go and die your parents would be more relax and don't have to think of you .

i was stun.. really. i was already having a bad day. 

and i had to face what this hater anon told me. but after all my sweet anon spamming my

ask.fm about how i should ignore the hater , like : 

( i dont know if you can read it but i think you can click to enlarge )

i was stunned again and at the same time , happy . i realise that there are

people who care for me. not now , but they do. they dont show it to me always .

but still , after this . i really felt that i wasnt alone. 

and to the hater ,

I dont care what you have to say about me to spoil my name. my life. 

but thankyou . thankyou for making me feel that i will find true love. i have true friends. arent we all a ' burden ' to our parents ? obv , a more positive side of burden. since young , they took care of us. they spent so much amount of love , time , care , money on us so that we are what and where we are today .

thank you for making me realize this hater anon. thankyou. you made me stronger. tho , i cannot forget what you told me. i still will have to thank you . making me more positive and making me realize i have friends WHO CARES. unlike you who hides behind the computer , staying as an ANON and hating me . 

i loveyou anon hater ! <3 haha..

remember , when you need a good cry , cry . when you need a good laugh , laugh .

mostly , if you need a good scream , scream . 

- twinkle ✞

Holidays .

Hello Holidays !! 

Okay , im 11 days slow. cause i didnt have the time to even blog okay .

so 5June to 8June , went batam. weeee . - insert boat symbol - Cause i cant find a boat symbol. -laugh-

well , batam was fun. not much to shop tho.. haha

feel like being a vlogger lei. omg. should i try ? like during this holiday ? omgomg. but my voice like shit.

and also , my house always so noisy.. but i want. what topic should i talk about ? ahhh , forget it. you guys also wont care de. hahaah lol. well , its going to be a short post. 

My hubby. ❣

Contact me @ twitter , ask.fm , email .

- twinkle ❣

Would you be more than a friend ? ♡

hey pinkies x.

Friday morning went well for me. had bfast with Joycelyn and Wenshan at kfc. tho i met Kaiwen , Kokle , Weekiat and unexpected guys Yoong and Cedric at mac. Haha. then off to school with girls. it wasnt a complete group , but atleast managed to have bfast with loves. 

but at that point , i was thinking , what if you were sitting beside me ? like Monday Morning ? how great can it be ? but no , no one was beside me. i really have no one to turn to . other then you readers. or maybe even just myself... haha ... 

reached school.. looked arond , didnt see you. ofc , my mood began to sunk. asked Zafran whether you are coming to school. ' No ' was the answer. Sunk even deeper. " So Thursday was the last day I see you before the 1 month holiday and i didnt cherish the time with you ? " i regretted. but still , i have to live life to the fullest . went to nex for Flag Day ~ 

and duh , my buddy is Shan. for all events , she will be there. laughing , whining with me. So walked walked walked . bumped into Edmund , Zafran , Hisyam , Ameer & John. Ed , Zaf & Hisyam ' run ' towards me for my water. and still , you are not here.. 

Went to Mac , as it was hot and we were tired ... HAHA . bumped into them again. And guess what ? You were there (': .. it made my mood high. and at the entrance of nex (?) we saw you again. really , you made me smile . (: 

okay , left nex @ 1pm ++ , w/o you . so its okay. 'cause i have cca. - sucks - . So cca started. was having footdrill (bronze) with le cadets. you guys walked in. making me laugh while commanding. and i caught your smile. your stare at me. you didnt know how happy i was again. hehe... 

so friday passed , just like this. i was thinking. today is 1 June. will you ask me back on the 5th ? im waiting. getting my hopes high for no reasons again huh ... nevermind at most i just break down ..haha ...

are you reading this ?.... then i have something to tell you..

ToChinLiang ♡ ; 

- How was your results ? good ? then welldone. if its not , try your best for next classtest , studies. Just remember even if you have no one to turn to , im here. & dont be silly , you dont owe me anything. it was me who put my hopes to high . continue loving E ? i dont mind. i just want our bro-ship back. bestfriends remember ? you were my punching bag. you were my pillar. even tho we were just bestfriends before. no what happened to us its not your fault. i told you i wanted to stay single till exams are over. i didnt keep that promise i promised myself. or i know we both can do better. we both would still be the same. in life there is alot of ' what if s ' . what if we didnt go steady ? what if we were just bestfriends ? what if we didnt have feelings for each other ? haha , but still remember , live life to the fullest , my lil prince. im your lil princess before. but until i completely forget about you , you will stay as my lil prince . bb prince .. ♡ ok ? just remember , you will never lose me as your friend. but can i ask , " Have you ever loved me ? Or you only love me as a lil sister and nothing else ? What were your feelings during the start of May ? Did youthink about E ? not even once ? "  I re-read our conv. yes i do . bus rides , train rides. even when im home. thinking about how sweet you were before. you actually could go to Mac straight with weewee to meet me at mac. but i tld you iw as afraid to walk out of school , you came to the school gate to pick me. you saw my hand was holding my big fat block flie , you took it without telling me. you forced me to eat breakfast when i didnt feel like. you took my phone away as i used it more and you wanted my attention. no guy ever did this to me. you were the first . and yes , i was v happy. cause i liked you since the start of the month ? but i knew i didnt have a chance , i let go . got with cal. broke up liked you again . but kenneth came in. then feelings for you and hisyam. hisyam gave me highhopes. you were there. you even heard me cry on th phone. you held my wrist and forbid me to punch the wall when i was already crying badly. you followed me out of the class. you were worried. thats when i realise i really do like you. go , listen to Stevie Hoang's songs. his songs is what im always feeling.. 050513 ; 0505pm. TCL and JOSL got together. Lil prince and Lil princess . ♡ ...... you ' scolded ' me when i wore heels as i was complaining how irritating it was and i almost fell cause of them. ToChinLiang , I still love you . but for you , im going to open my hands. Not to let go , not to hold on. but if you do wanna ask me back , im willing to. but if you dont , i'll wait. ToChinLiang , i love you.. ♡ 

- Your used to be , little princess on 050513 ; 0505pm.. 

okay , tata pinkies x..

- twinkleelyn ✡