alone.

i've always felt alone. like no one is there or even here for me. 

it sucks. really.. sigh why . 

i dont get the things in return. is like , ha .. i just find that this year sucks alot..

how am i going to celebrate my sweet fifteen ? or should i say fucked up fifteen ..

im not happy at all .. i dont know why .. spamming myself with all the sad songs.

ha , pathetic. wont be a long post , gonna game like shit today maybe going out later.

but all i really feel now is alone. where are the people that said 

" I will be here for you ? " 

i mean like , if you're going to promise someone something , shouldnt you fulfill that promise ?

sigh , forget it. im transparent. invisible. dead and gone. no one bothers. 

ha.. im happy no ? faking a fucking smile.

im fucking tired. but also , i finally forgotten. i gave up .

on the sweetest guy .. haha .. 

phone is fucking silent. is like , ya even if i offed my phone for one whole fucking day , 

you wont care . i know it. i was gone for one whole afternoon once. no one even text or wa me.

i feel fucking burden rn .. no one is here to hear my rants but only you readers.

idontknow who are you. but thankyou. it showed that you care .

but like you wouldnt want me to know who you are.

its ok.. you readers make my blog alive.

& thats why i continued blogging. cause i know this is the only place i could just rant my heart out .

- twinkle . ♡