hey pinkies x.
Friday morning went well for me. had bfast with Joycelyn and Wenshan at kfc. tho i met Kaiwen , Kokle , Weekiat and unexpected guys Yoong and Cedric at mac. Haha. then off to school with girls. it wasnt a complete group , but atleast managed to have bfast with loves.
but at that point , i was thinking , what if you were sitting beside me ? like Monday Morning ? how great can it be ? but no , no one was beside me. i really have no one to turn to . other then you readers. or maybe even just myself... haha ...
reached school.. looked arond , didnt see you. ofc , my mood began to sunk. asked Zafran whether you are coming to school. ' No ' was the answer. Sunk even deeper. " So Thursday was the last day I see you before the 1 month holiday and i didnt cherish the time with you ? " i regretted. but still , i have to live life to the fullest . went to nex for Flag Day ~
and duh , my buddy is Shan. for all events , she will be there. laughing , whining with me. So walked walked walked . bumped into Edmund , Zafran , Hisyam , Ameer & John. Ed , Zaf & Hisyam ' run ' towards me for my water. and still , you are not here..
Went to Mac , as it was hot and we were tired ... HAHA . bumped into them again. And guess what ? You were there (': .. it made my mood high. and at the entrance of nex (?) we saw you again. really , you made me smile . (:
okay , left nex @ 1pm ++ , w/o you . so its okay. 'cause i have cca. - sucks - . So cca started. was having footdrill (bronze) with le cadets. you guys walked in. making me laugh while commanding. and i caught your smile. your stare at me. you didnt know how happy i was again. hehe...
so friday passed , just like this. i was thinking. today is 1 June. will you ask me back on the 5th ? im waiting. getting my hopes high for no reasons again huh ... nevermind at most i just break down ..haha ...
are you reading this ?.... then i have something to tell you..
ToChinLiang ♡ ;
- How was your results ? good ? then welldone. if its not , try your best for next classtest , studies. Just remember even if you have no one to turn to , im here. & dont be silly , you dont owe me anything. it was me who put my hopes to high . continue loving E ? i dont mind. i just want our bro-ship back. bestfriends remember ? you were my punching bag. you were my pillar. even tho we were just bestfriends before. no what happened to us its not your fault. i told you i wanted to stay single till exams are over. i didnt keep that promise i promised myself. or i know we both can do better. we both would still be the same. in life there is alot of ' what if s ' . what if we didnt go steady ? what if we were just bestfriends ? what if we didnt have feelings for each other ? haha , but still remember , live life to the fullest , my lil prince. im your lil princess before. but until i completely forget about you , you will stay as my lil prince . bb prince .. ♡ ok ? just remember , you will never lose me as your friend. but can i ask , " Have you ever loved me ? Or you only love me as a lil sister and nothing else ? What were your feelings during the start of May ? Did youthink about E ? not even once ? " I re-read our conv. yes i do . bus rides , train rides. even when im home. thinking about how sweet you were before. you actually could go to Mac straight with weewee to meet me at mac. but i tld you iw as afraid to walk out of school , you came to the school gate to pick me. you saw my hand was holding my big fat block flie , you took it without telling me. you forced me to eat breakfast when i didnt feel like. you took my phone away as i used it more and you wanted my attention. no guy ever did this to me. you were the first . and yes , i was v happy. cause i liked you since the start of the month ? but i knew i didnt have a chance , i let go . got with cal. broke up liked you again . but kenneth came in. then feelings for you and hisyam. hisyam gave me highhopes. you were there. you even heard me cry on th phone. you held my wrist and forbid me to punch the wall when i was already crying badly. you followed me out of the class. you were worried. thats when i realise i really do like you. go , listen to Stevie Hoang's songs. his songs is what im always feeling.. 050513 ; 0505pm. TCL and JOSL got together. Lil prince and Lil princess . ♡ ...... you ' scolded ' me when i wore heels as i was complaining how irritating it was and i almost fell cause of them. ToChinLiang , I still love you . but for you , im going to open my hands. Not to let go , not to hold on. but if you do wanna ask me back , im willing to. but if you dont , i'll wait. ToChinLiang , i love you.. ♡
- Your used to be , little princess on 050513 ; 0505pm..
okay , tata pinkies x..
- twinkleelyn ✡
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