i thought ..

i thought i was going th right way . the way to happiness.

but no . i was wrong. super duper wrong .

i thought we were lasting. no . i was wrong.

im wrong. wrong. wrong. 

imissyou . 

wait , i dont. smirks.

i just dont get it. i always go the wrong way when i have no confidence.

and i tend to got to go to the right way with confidence .

i guess you dont know what im talking about ehy ?

sigh , nevermind.

DaddyGod is always there weather i go the right way , or not. he is always there.

he didnt leave me or ever will. 

well , end it here. tata x..

Hi.

goodmorning sweethearts , readers , haters .

skyping with twinneh . telling her all my problems . winkwink..

why did i have THAT dream ?

is it a sign ? from DaddyGod to not giveup ? and you'll be mine again ?

sigh . 

forget it , dont think too much and have a happy life .

ok ? <:

Twinneh is so cute in skpe. HAHAAA .

iloveher okie.

well , my problems no more . 

tata x.

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yea why ? seriously , i miss you during these 2 months .

lying to myself if im saying im ok . 

im like , why must you lie to me ? why must we meet.

if .. all the " if " s are running inside my head .

seriously , my past life , what did i do to you that now i must suffer like fuck ?

i cried . i cried . do you know that ?

i guess you dont . you said sorry .

but if sorry can turn back time , that would be great ..

seriously .  sigh . i miss you . i miss 18072012 .

i miss you asshole . i miss you jerk . i miss you ..

while typing all this , im crying . inside and out .

why doid i let go in the first place ? why did i lose this battle ? why ..

why did i let go . why am i upset even when im blaming myself .

whywhywhy ..

im tired of all this . if going les is what i should do , i'll do so .

im tired of all lies . all the hurt given to me .

think , fair to me ? sigh .

didnt blog for many days . and so many shits now .

13 days of nov . fucked up like i never been like this before .

whats wrong with me .

whats wrong with my heart ?

and again , while typing , my heart felt like being stabbed , shot . 

5 more days . 181112 . 4 months .

Calvin , i dont know if you're reading my blog still . 

im sorry , i know you really love me . im sorry .

even when i didnt break with you , you did .

many blamed you , but no , i blame myself .

for not cherishing a great guy . im sorry . 

well , i hate myself for all this . i only cause sadness .

fuckmylife.

sigh .. ☹

this little pictures tdy . upset thing is that it was all fake .

everything . silent break tdy .. 

thanks Claudia and darling for cheering me up ..

Still feel so ... gah .. imissyou .

your last text is ; Morning [: . 

sigh . told chu we are nt meant to be . 

sigh . kiss 111012 goodbye . and its like only 8 more days ..

i'll miss you pig . x.......................

have a happy life okie ..

getwell soon . drink lots of water.

iloveyou .. x

Shall blog again,

Hi again . Im not upset no im not .

im just bored kay >:

pig created formspring , guess created just to stalk me .

how sweet x.

leaving Singapore in 15 days time.

Anyone going to miss me ?! Hehe . i know the pig will .

Monday got contactsession again. zzz 

half asleep . lens. no one cares :B

best is no trackpants ! YAY .

well , going to pick Jodice soon.

sigh , no more blogging for today >: .

Okay tata x.

happygirl98 yesterday . ithink

Didnt blog yesterday. >< 

anyways , pig is sick >: . Dowan go see doctor somemore >: .

Sigh .

this are all yeasterday's picture. lol <:

waking up early this holiday . FUUUUU >: .

i wanna sleep yknw ? sigh >: .

Yesterday was alright for me . wasnt that upset like everyday .

yesterday was suppose to get my new phone ,

I FORGOT TO BRING MY STUDENTPASS >< 

FUUUUUUUUUUUUUU .... !

sigh >: . shall wait sua ..... >: 

Anyways , post getting too long . tata x.