Sigh . Where is my sixth ? tbvh , i miss you alot .. day3 without you . im still broken , taking the time to forget what we all had. but when will the time come ? Weeks , Months , Years ? HA.. so yes . Le favourite girls told me if im back with him , they will be angry with me. i know girls , you guys care for me. but im actually happier with him. when he was here with me. cried for 3 days straight.. swollen eyes but will you even care ? stalked you , you seem like you will forget me soon . haha .. its okay ! can't contact you for a week . but now , it seems like 123456789 days without talking to you . why ? you made the greatest impact .
many people told me , you're a flirt. you are someone who will make me upset for. but are they me ? do they know what i want ? if you would change , i dont mind. you dont change ? thats why i love you. you for you . but i cant be with the guy i love. why ? do you all want to see me cry everyday , being upset ? happier now or before ? its before. i miss what i once had. life is full of regrets. really .. why did i break our promise ? why didnt i talk to you about it before then jumped to conclusions ? sigh i dont get why i did all this.. life is really full of regrets. painful regrets ..
are you still reading my blog ? like you always use to ? cause i really have something to tell you :
Have a happier life ahead. remember not to find a girl like me okay ? who always never fail to jump in to conclusions and being so stubborn all the time. remember i use to eat half a box of chocolates and you scolded me for not taking care of myself ? cause i wanted YOU to take care of me. for the rest of our lives together. but i think this wish or even dream of mine will never ever come true. it will never come. i dont mind about your past or how many girls you talked to or loved before. i love you and thats all . i really really miss you this past days. not in the mood to eat . 3 days didnt eat my medicine. where are you to remind me ?? you always do . just look . once a happy girl , became so upset cause of the greatest mistake made. letting such a guy go . really , you were the best . be it with friends or alone. you're the same. sweet as ever. lost for words ? its okay . i miss all your long texts. but thinking back , look at how much we gone thru in just this 1month together ? alot isnt it ? i miss calling you my boyfriend. i miss the times we otp-ed together . we know each others for atleast 2 years now. i know you too little. if we have th chance to be together again , i will really take my time . to understand you. better this time. i'll be a better girl. a less stubborn girl.
CalvinQuekYongYee , i still love you and i'll hold on to you. foolish to hold on to the past ? i dont care what others say or think. i love you , i miss you and i want you back here in my life. will you ??
xoxo ..
